a emotional trip through a hysterical head

iseethestars @ 2009-12-07T02:38:00

2009-12-07T08:38:18Z

alex bought me tiger lilies
a fab new purple coat
a wonderful meal at papasittos
my awesome xmas tree
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im back baby

2009-11-19T05:08:17Z

im back on lj!! its been forever. i have been facebooking alot lately, but that is getting

i wish they still made nabisco brand bacon thin crackers! i used to eat them all the time when i was a kid! MMMMMMMMMM!!!

iseethestars @ 2009-05-22T01:24:00

2009-05-22T06:26:08Z

i feel like ive gotten so old. im an old lady, but i still like to party often. thats where im at right now. ?????

hi!

2009-05-10T02:28:10Z

wow, i havent posted in here for alooong time! i am doing good. living with one of my friends in elgin tx which is 30 miles east of austin. we live in the country! haha. its good though. she has a house and is renting me a room. i have 2 rooms and my own bathroom. and a yard and wireless internet and digital cable in my room. her husband is deployed right now so it is good that we can both be together and not lonely.
i am happier then i have been in a long long time. i have met lots of hot guys lately also which is always good. :) . i was going to write more but now i am trying to figure out what ive done everynight this week. but i cant remember each night! hahaha too funny.

iseethestars @ 2008-11-17T16:43:00

2008-11-17T22:47:19Z

hi everyone!
my computer has been broken for awhile so im using my dads when i get a chance to go to his house.
not much is new with me except that i have been feeling alot happier lately then i have in a long time. i think its that im starting to meet new people at work and starting to get friends and be comfortable.
charlie is looking out the sliding glass door and growling. hahaha. im gonna go take him on a walk i guess. its so nice out i love fall weather!
hope everyone is doing good!! ill catch up and comment soon!

theres no basement at the alamo

2008-11-10T05:00:31Z

on tuesday, im going to the alamo!!! me and mike always always quote the alamo scene from the movie pee wees big adventure, so im so excited to go there! ha.

iseethestars @ 2008-11-09T12:29:00

2008-11-09T18:32:25Z

lifetime movie network has had good movies on all weekend. its pretty entertaining! i wish i could watch "too young to die" with brad pitt and juliette lewis. but gotta work :/ .

im also excited for the new reality show on lifetime called blush. its a reality show to find the next best makeup artist. it looks really cool. i believe they said it will be on tuesday night at 10.

iseethestars @ 2008-11-07T23:26:00

2008-11-08T05:27:28Z

there is an owl outside in my yard! hoooo hooooo

nooooooo work :(

2008-11-07T18:57:20Z

i dont wanna get up and go to work today

see!! oh and i usually look different when i have eyebrows ;)

havent seen charlie in a while, ill have to go to my dads soon

so interesting im sure

2008-11-07T07:43:28Z

i bought myself a new vaccuum cleaner. at first i had a $130 model in my cart. then halfway through the store i was like

"what are you crazy??"

i went back and got a $70 version instead. its just me living here, no one comes over so if it leaves a few crumbs here or there big woop.

i really wanted the awesome yellow dyson which is like $389. hahaha such lofty dreams.

when did i become such an adult???

happy voting day!!

2008-11-04T23:38:57Z

I VOTED!!!! at first i went to where i thought i was supposed to vote, but apparently i have been believing that i live in a different county. i live very very close to the county line. so i had to drive to a different voting place and i was all expecting something to go wrong but i just walked right in and voted! no line at all what so ever! yay!!

i cant believe the weather here! 80 in november is so unreal to me!

realityyyy

2008-11-03T07:56:35Z

i got a wicked rude customer today that yelled at me for not smiling at her. LOL. reminds me of back home. texans arent generally rude ive noticed.
oh and then a girl at work the other day passed out and had a sezuire at her register. poor thing. she had to be taken out by parametics. anyways a customer came in today to complain that this same girl messed up on her reciept. she kept bitching and bitching saying that the cashier was weird. i even explained to her that she had a sezuire pretty much right after she rang up the customer so that was why, she wasnt in her right mind. the woman was like oh the poor thing. then started bitching again and again. she was only over charged a dollar eighy seven. big woop. who continues to bitch and wants a big apology after i tell her that the girl friggin passed out after her order? and you were only overcharged a buck eighty. i wanted to bitch smack her. ha
customers at my store are seldom ever rude so it was a reality check today. i felt like i was back in maine.

iseethestars @ 2008-11-01T23:50:00

2008-11-02T04:51:26Z

i found the battery charger to my digital camera!! my entries are about to get alot more interesting! cause everyone loves a picture!!
yay!

iseethestars @ 2008-10-30T01:25:00

2008-10-30T06:28:38Z

have you ever lived somewhere crazy?

i lived in quincy massachusetts and it was the
crazy/RANDOM/strang--est place ive ever been.

i only wish my section of austin was so awesome.

please share.

iseethestars @ 2008-10-29T23:54:00

2008-10-30T04:56:37Z

i just want a vaccuum cleaner that WORKS!!!!!! if you could see my floor right now, youd agree.

iseethestars @ 2008-10-28T00:12:00

2008-10-28T05:22:58Z

i just found out tonight that my manager at work was in las vegas in the car behind 2pac shakur when he was shot and killed.
i find this randomly interesting.
he drew me this big diagram of how everything went down.
hahha.
he is the farthest thing from gangsta that i would or could ever imagine so that makes it all the funnier.

jennifer hudsons nephew was found dead today. what is wrong with people seriously???????????
i think that is so sad.
plus the other day a cute cute little girl was wandering around by herself in the parking lot at my job. she looked no older then 2. someone brought her to the service desk while they searched for her mom. it took her mom forever to come and get her and even then she didnt act the least bit concerned.
again......what is wrong with people?

im procrastinating doing my laundry. sigh. my wish is to someday have a full size washer and dryer of my very own in my actual residence!

also
the other night i had a nightmare a real true nightmare that i was on celebrity rehab with dr drew. heidi montag or whatever her name is from that show the hills was on it and she was talking and bitching and freaking out and i got sooo stressed out and anxious. i actually woke up from that dream with my hands clutching my face. and i was gasping and had to really wake up and calm myself down. hahahahaha. random. then that same night i dreamt i was friends with barrack obama and we were sharing a hotel room and i was sleeping at the foot of his bed lengthwise. it wasnt sexual at all. just very strange.

iseethestars @ 2008-10-27T01:32:00

2008-10-27T06:33:05Z

iseethestars @ 2008-10-26T00:47:00

2008-10-26T05:48:07Z

i feel so ugly today. i feel gross and unattractive. sigggggggggggh. it sucks being a woman sometimes.

iseethestars @ 2008-10-20T22:31:00

2008-10-21T03:38:22Z

i watched the original version of the movie the haunting, today. its old in black and white and creepy. not gory at all and very old fashioned. i loved it.

i just about had a nervous breakdown earlier. i need help with these issues in my head. im not sure if im manic depressive or not. i dont get very manic if i am. i dont know. i get depressive thats for sure. in january when i get health insurance i guess ill find out. until then i have to try to keep it together.

supposed to go to a halloween party on the 24th. not sure what to be. all i know is that i want to wear a wig and alot of makeup. i dont have money for much of a costume. hmmm i need something creative. any ideas are welcomed. i kind of want to be a fairy. i just want to look pretty and wear alot of glitter and a long wig. i dont feel like wearing wings though. and i dont feel like dressing up sexy. i just want to look pretty. haha. we'll see i guess.

iseethestars @ 2008-10-18T23:25:00

2008-10-19T04:55:19Z

please remind me never to venture out into town again when there is a ut football game going on. ive never seen such a huge celebration.
i get annoyed but at the same time, this is these peoples home and this is their team. i am the outsider here. of course they are gonna celebrate. it would be like them being in boston during the world series.

but still. lol. i hate football. annoying.

i tried to meet some friends downtown but it was soooooo chaotic with the game going on and i got lost anyways. so i just came home instead. boo. i hate that there arent trains here. they need better public transport. I NEED TO MOVE CLOSER TO TOWN. that is going to be a long term goal.

my mental state is a mess as usual. its okay though. things will eventually get better i am hoping.

i want to dread my hair. im on vicodin for my stupid sore tooth. the end.

came across this. i like it

2008-10-18T05:15:49Z

One evening many moons ago, an old Cherokee man told his grandson about an ancient battle that lives inside people. He said, "My son, the battle is between two wolves inside us all. One is Evil. It is anger, envy, jealousy, sorrow, regret, greed, arrogance, self-pity, guilt, resentment, inferiority, lies, false pride, superiority, and ego. The other is Good. It is joy, peace, love, hope, serenity, humility, kindness, benevolence, empathy, generosity, truth, compassion and faith."

The grandson thought about those words for a minute and then asked, "Which wolf wins, Grandfather?"

The old Cherokee simply replied, "The one you feed."

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iseethestars @ 2008-10-17T11:30:00

2008-10-17T16:31:11Z

my favorite thing to do lately is sleep. soooo great!!!
also i love malcolm in the middle.

iseethestars @ 2008-10-14T22:15:00

2008-10-15T03:18:27Z

i went to mcdonalds today. i ate inside. i had my keys on my tray. i accidently threw my keys away in the trash. i had forgotten that they were on my tray. i had to pick threw the trash at mcdonalds to find them. i had to take the can out of the trash booth. luckily there wasnt much gross trash, just wrappers, some fries, and a cup of ketchup. they were close to the top of the can luckily. it was gross. but so funny.
the end

iseethestars @ 2008-10-13T12:51:00

2008-10-13T18:00:35Z

i never realised that austin, i dont know that it was such a party town i guess? i went out last night sunday and all the bars and clubs were packed! i parked in a totally ghetto area cause i didnt know where to go. i was actually a tad bit nervous when i was walking past crowds of people that did look like they were up to anything good. but surprisingly no one said a word to me. some kids asked for change and that was about it. so that was good. i have to admit i was honestly a bit nervous where i was walking, i was the minority, it was midnight and i was alone, lost, and in a skimpy outfit.
not one of my safest moves but its okay. next time i will make sure to not go out by myself or ill take a cab. went dancing with my friend henry from work at this kind of 80s/newwavish/industrial bar. it was interesting. i had alot of fun dancing. i havent danced for years. ended up getting drunk and making out with this cute guy that wanted to spend the night with me. i was like no thanks. i just felt like making out. i havent done anything like that in literally like 5 years. haha i am getting older but am still having fun so that is great i think. its okay to do things like that once in a great while i think.

iseethestars @ 2008-09-26T22:17:00

2008-09-27T03:18:09Z

i have the worst headache right now. plus im exhausted from work. tomorrow is my ten year high school reunion!! since i cant be there since its like literaly 3000 miles away, i hope that my friends that ARE going will share the gossip with me. i feel i should type more but im too tired. my wrist felt carpal tunnelish today but then it went away.
i didnt take a celexa last night and i felt odd all day. i bought some new shampoo and conditioner from nature something or other, that does NOT test any products on animals.
do you know that maybeline, clairol, l'oreal, covergirl, maxfactor, and anything proctor and gambal ALL TEST ON ANIMALS????
im no vegetarian but i cant find the reasoning to buy a mascara that has been smeared into the eyes of a rabbit or cat to look for a reaction. its NOT RIGHT!!!!! i am finding myself getting closer and closer to vegetarianism each day.
almay and revlon are the drug store brands i have found that dont test on animals. im not sure why they dont make this more well known. revlon kinda sucks they could use a revamp and they should say that they are animal friendly. i buy organic brands now from whole foods or my work but they are so expensive but so be it.
but not burts bees cause their parent company tests on animals.
oooh i got new tires on my car and i only paid for 3 new ones and got 4!! i think it was a mistake on their part but oh well. i think it was karma coming back around for the other day when i got 10 dollars of gas and paid with a 20 and the girl was on the phone and gave me 2 tens back. i reeeeeeeally needed the money but i couldnt bare to shortchange her so i returned the extra 10 bucks.
then i ended up with a brand new free tire worth like 56 bucks! woohoooooooo
hopefully whoever did it doesnt get in trouble. im figuring they did it to be nice maybe? how do you make a mistake like that? no one at pepboys looked like they gave a shit anyways so whatever.
tried to find the lion king at walmart tonight but they dont sell it. lame. i dont know where to find it i dont feel like ordering but i may have to.
im thinking of sleeping in my bed again instead of on my futon. right now my bed acts as a closet/hamper. i hope clean house is on its my fave! i love nicey!
have a good weekend everyone!!